God Why? – A Journey in Trusting God

Trusting God

Impact-Site-Verification: 3633e4d2-d4c2-4f85-bcbd-9f48a6968c73 Have you ever thought to yourself, God why? Why is this happening to me? Why do I have to deal with this? Why aren’t you blessing me like you are with that person? Does this sound familiar to you? It seems like everyone is living their best lives and reaching their goals. They’re experiencing life’s journeys so happily while you struggle just to make it through another day. Some seem to have the perfect marriage or family. Others love their job or have the finances to travel.

I tell God, “I’m trying. I know I’m not perfect, and often screw up, but I’m doing my best to walk in your ways. Am I doing something wrong? Did I do something to deserve this? Why is everything either falling apart or seem like it isn’t getting better? Why aren’t I even close to where I thought things would be at this point in my life, marriage, family, job, faith, finances, etc.? What are you trying to teach me?” These are some of the questions that run through my mind and that I ask God. The truth is, it isn’t always because we’re doing something wrong, but rather He is pruning and strengthening us in the process in order so that we realize how much we need Him. That we may be stronger and stand firmer in Him.

I get frustrated with the physical pains I have to deal with. They limit me from being the wife, mom, and person I desire to be. The eating issues we have with our son (sensory issues towards food/ eating), is just the icing on the cake. His eating is much better than it used to be (glory to God) but we haven’t fully reached the top of that mountain yet. Many times I become upset with the struggles of limited time and the pressure to keep up with everything going on around me, and the tasks that need to be completed. If you have gone through similar feelings then you know what I’m talking about.

On the flip side, though my circumstances may not be ideal I’m thankful that the Lord has blessed me with a husband that is committed to taking care of our family. I have a beautiful healthy son, who is an answered pray after a miscarriage with what would have been our first son. We are blessed with a home, jobs, food and a loving family surrounding us. Recently I’ve been checking myself when I let my mind and frustrations get the best of me. God has been really challenging me with learning to trust Him. Now more than ever I realize it’s much easier said than done, or easier in certain situations than others. I’ve been confronted with really analyzing my life and observing if I’m allowing God to be in control of everything or if I’m trying to control some areas myself? Am I really putting all my trust in Him and being patient in the waiting? Am I being a good steward with what He has blessed me with? If not, how can He trust me/ bless me with anything more? We don’t serve God in exchange for what He can do for us, but rather in honor of what He has already done for us by providing us salvation through the sacrifice of his perfect son Jesus.  (Proverbs 3:5-6)

What does it really mean to trust God? Why does it seem so hard? Do we really trust that His path is better and that He knows what’s best for us more than we do? (Psalm 18:30). I have had a hard time answering these questions honestly. The truth is, as humans, we like to be in control of our paths, desires, dreams and overall life. Trusting God is, believing in his promises and knowing that He is faithful to His Word. Psalm 18:30 (NLT) reminds us “God’s way is perfect. All the Lord’s promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection.” Trusting God and the path He has laid out for us to follow is so important, as said in Proverbs 3:5-6 “ 5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”

The enemy wants us to lose focus on what’s most important, so he finds ways to distract us, filling our mind with lies and our life with chaos. We begin to question God and our lives. In a recent preaching I heard by Heather Lindsey, she mentioned how the enemy likes to fill our minds with lies and doubt. She reminds us how we need to fill our minds with the Word of God and use the Word of God to “fight back”. Praying scripture and affirming it is so necessary. We need to remember God’s promises and how He wants us to trust Him in every situation no matter how high the waves seem or how strong the winds are. Though we may be at our wits end with our marriage, children, job, finances, in our season of singleness or whatever it is you’re struggling with, our Heavenly Father is waiting to wrap you in His arms. However, we must first come to Him, willing to let go of our own will, trusting Him to be with us through the storm and declaring the power to calm it (Mark 4:37-40). I don’t say any of this because I’ve figured it out and have it all together, but rather because God has been working in my heart and pruning some things in me in these very areas. He has been reminding me that I need to remain in Him and Him in me (John 15:4) regardless of how my circumstances may seem. We can do all things who Christ who strengthens us (Philippians 4:19).

If you have issues in your marriage remember what 1 Peter 3: 1-5 (NIV) says “Wives, in the same way submit yourselves to your own husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to adorn themselves.” You are a living testimony in your home/ marriage. Win Him over for Jesus through your humble spirit. That doesn’t mean you have any control in the matter though. God will use you as a testimony to draw your spouse to Himself. Live out the fruits of the spirit (Galatians 5:22-23 and 1 Corinthians 13:4-8).

God promises that if we seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, He will provide our needs (Matthew 6:31-33, Matthew 7:11, Philippians 4:6 & 19, 1 John 3:22). If you are suffering in your finances, with your children, marriage, or you’re wondering “God where’s my man?”, remember and stand firm on these scriptures. Affirm them, repeating them and praying them. Most of all, we have to believe them. God wants us to come with a pure heart (Matthews 5:6, 1 Timothy 1:5). Give your circumstances and worries to Him because He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7).

I pray that it you’re reading this and it relates to you in any way, that you will pour your heart out to the Lord. May He begin to do a great work in you and any situations you are giving up to Him.

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